LETTER TO TYLER -turning off my reverse alarm.

If some of the people we see and admire today didn't rise up to pursue their God given purpose, they wont be the icon we aspire to emulate. We can't achieve that living in the Past. Mr Tyler Perry your messages, movies are source of inspiration to my life and this particular write up is setting me free, I wanted to reply the e-mail but couldn't,This seems like the best way I could, by sharing it with people who read my blog, those who don't have the opportunity of being in your mailing list like I am. At one point or the other everyone of us turn on the reverse alarm and it has kept us where we are now. I do this over and over again, even when am aware I can't change the past, I let the thought limit me but right now am turning it off. If i have to read this message everyday till it sinks in, I will do just that. What are you gonna do? Your generation is waiting for you.... If Mr Tyler didn't switch his reverse alarm off his message wont be a blessing to someone like me far away in Africa. Redeem your God given time, forget about the wasted years and start changing life today. I hope his message to me bless you as well.... "That Is Your Past And There Is No Future In It" Hey Ibukun, We have some golf carts at the studio. We use them to run around the campus, getting actors from here to there and so on. But the thing that bothers me the most about them is that when you put them into reverse a beeping alarm goes off. And it doesn’t stop until you go forward. It is so annoying to be in the middle of a shot, when I need it very quiet, to hear that beeping noise. I wanted the facilities guys to disconnect the reverse alarm but I was told that they couldn’t because it is a safety measure. The alarm is there to let people know that you’re about to go backwards. I walked back to my office thinking about this and this thought popped into my head: wouldn’t it be great if we as humans had an annoying alarm that made a loud continuous beep when we are about to go into reverse? When we’re about to look back, like when you’re about to pick up that phone and call an ex that you know is no good for you, wouldn’t it be great if that alarm went on and stayed on until you hung up the phone? Wouldn’t it be great for all the people around you to hear that alarm so that they know you are about to go backwards and bring up some old crap? I think husbands and boyfriends would love that… LOL. But seriously, there are a lot of people who are living their lives stuck in reverse, alarms going off, beeps beeping very loudly, but they can't get it out of reverse. You know these kinds of people, the ones that nobody wants to be around because they can be so annoying, always dwelling on the past. Full of “I wish I had done this” or “I wish I could have done that”. These kinds of people are sad to me, not focusing on the beauty of today, they’d rather dig through the ashes of yesterday. Listen to me, you can’t change anything that you have done in your past, all you can do is go forward. No matter how many mistakes you have made, no matter how many things you have done wrong, you have got to move forward. That is your past and there is no future in it. And the only way to move forward is to ask for forgiveness from the people who you have hurt and wronged. Whether they forgive you or not you must ask… sorry that’s just the way it is. If you don’t you will continue to reap bad things from what you have done to them, even if they don’t forgive you. You will have the power to be free because you asked for forgiveness. And secondly, you must forgive yourself. Forgiveness is the key that can move your life forward… and turn off the reverse alarm. Talk soon, Tyler

YOUR CHOICE

Our life is guided by the choices we make. Its your choice if you allow the judgment or the perception of people around determine the way you see yourself, it’s your choice if you permit the negative thoughts to take precedent in your life. Its your choice if you let the devil twist the promise of God in your life, it’s your choice who you choose to believe. How many of you have heard positive things about your life and you choose to listen to the version of the negative voice. We are shaped by our thoughts; we become what we think. if we spend more time replaying the negative version of our promises that’s what we will produce. People are failing to produce not because they don’t have the will, but they believe they don’t hence they don’t act in order to produce. Even the bible says faith without work is dead (James 2:14-26). It’s amazing how the perspective of others take over our lives, A friend of mine was lied to and when she found out the truth and confronted the person, he made her look stupid yet she was lied to. Who is supposed to feel bad? My friend or the liar? That’s how much other peoples view can affect us. Even the past is a strong limitation, Mavin Sapp said in his song titled “THE BEST IN ME” that God only sees us for who we are and not what we did, He formed us, so He sees us for who He actually made us to be not by the past error. Why do we let the past dictate the future? Why do we let the view of someone who is imperfect be a barrier. Tyler Perry said it doesn’t matter if a million people tell you what you can’t do or ten million people tell you no. if you get a Yes from God that’s all you need. What you choose to believe is your choice, it’s up to you to counter the negative words and replace them with the positive words that the Lord has given to you in the bible. Don’t let the devil and his agents rule you…..ITS YOUR CHOICE.

JOY LIKE A RIVER

Its so amazing how the things we surround ourself with have a way of speaking to our present situation. Today I woke up so heavy hence am just reading my daily devotion and here is the one that made me feel like Oh Lord this isn't a coincidence. It doesn't say word for word what's wrong with me but its speak live to me. Don't let anyone rob you of your Joy, God cares for you much more than that...Really not easy but keep the spirit alive. Sharing this with everyone who feel the way I felt this morning.....Let the Joy of God flow like a river inside of you...It is also not coincidence that I heard my father say on T.V this morning "SOME DISAPPOINTMENT IN LIFE IS A BLESSING, ORCHESTRATED BY GOD TO MAKE YOUR LIFE BETTER" "I Don’t Feel Very Good About Myself Lord, you know that many days my smile and outward calm are only a mask. They are the mask I wear to hide what’s really going on inside me. I wish I felt like more of a success. I wish I didn’t spend so much time worrying about my looks and hating all my flaws. I wish I felt more self-confident. Here’s my guilty secret--I don’t like myself very much. I have many dark feelings and moods. I am painfully aware of my failings and shortcomings. I try so hard to improve my appearance, but I fear it’s a lost cause. I will never think of myself as good-looking. Lord, you are my great hope. You are the great lover of the unlovely. You are the one who befriends the lonely and the losers; you give beauty for ashes. You make me feel wanted and precious. “When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul” (Psalm 94:19). Help me stop obsessing about my looks and what people might think about me. What matters most is that you care for me. Thank you for your unconditional love for me. If you forgive me, I can forgive myself. If you like me, I can like myself. If you think I’m somebody, then I’m somebody indeed." (youversion)

I WON, I CHOOSE RIGHT.

I apologize to my faithful readers who have asked me severally if I have abandon my blog, the answer is no. Although sometimes I feel like am so consumed with my publications and forget about sharing my thoughts, the truth is I made a promise to write just as it is and when something happens and I can’t share it the way it is, I choose not to write. I don’t want to be in the same situation with same people I have complained about, I believe the things I couldn’t share happened so I can understand the other perspective of writing, Some people have to make things up just because they don’t want to be Judged. As I fellowship today and I was having the thought of defeat and I could hear in my spirit, just because I choose right doesn’t mean I was defeated, Rather I am the winner. Some people think am a religious writer, the answer is no but my spirituality is part of me, so there is no way am going to write about my thoughts and leave that part of me, In fact my spirituality is my inspiration for doing what I love. Have you ever felt like just because you choose to make peace with someone who wronged you, you feel defeated? Or just because you let someone have their way and choose to do the right thing and they make you feel like they defeated you and you accept it. This morning I realize that just because I choose right makes me a winner. It leaves me free of guilt of doing the wrong thing and the supposed winner is still trap in the agony of their choice. The worst way of judging happiness, is judging from the face. It is deeper than that, it radiates from the inside and rub off on the people around you, then you won’t have to announce it, people see and feel it. I know it’s easier for us to go ask for forgiveness from some we have wrong but it harder to go reconcile with someone who has wronged us and sometimes when we try, we do it the wrong way. We condemn them and hope that makes us feel better. Ask yourself, does it make you feel better? Apostle Paul says in Romans 14:19 “Therefore let us pursue the things which make for peace and the things by which one may edify another”. We are to approach peace through humility at the expense of our pride. It is the only way to see true reconciliation. Pride defends. Humility agrees and says, “You are right, I have acted this way, Please forgive me. That’s the wisdom from above.

The whole point is,” if it is possible as much as it depends on you, live peaceably with all men Romans 12:18” Either you are the right or wrong one, seek peace and do it the right way especially if you desire peace. Its unavoidable, this things trouble us, when you seek peace, it is for your sake and not the other person, you have chosen right therefore you are the winner not a looser don’t let the wrong thoughts lie to you. Sometimes it seems like am been unrealistic writing the impossible, I agree it’s hard but know for sure, when I write it I am willing to give it a shot. I refuse to be hindered by offense, bitterness, pain, betrayal and hurts that come from feeling defeated. I am a winner, I choose right.

WHO ARE YOU?

Have you discovered yourself? If yes, tell me do you really know who you are? I am going to speak from my own personal experience. I have realized that as we grow each and every day; we start to discover our purpose or rather we begin to understand our purpose better. I have also discovered that so many things we desire to be as a child because we have seen people succeed in it, doesn't mean that’s what we are called for. Nobody desires to be a failure but if you are operating outside of your God given purpose my friend you are a Failure. Often times even after we have discovered ourselves, either through life’s event or any other way. We expect it to happen automatically. Life has thought me that just as you have discovered yourself so has the enemy of greatness. And he will do all he can to frustrate you from fulfilling destiny. Darling it’s not because of you, it’s because of how many others your discovery will save. Our God given purpose is not for us to liberate ourselves and family, we are called for a greater work. It is very important we affect even our community and the world at large. So can you imagine how many the devil will lose if you succeed? He will try all he can to keep you in bondage of darkness so as not to realize “WHO YOU ARE”. I am not writing only for people who are yet to discover themselves but most especially people who have discovered themselves and have allowed one or two failures distract them from their true identity. The minute you realize this is the devil trying to frustrate your fulfillment, you will not stay down; rather you will keep rising each time you fall. Often times writers don’t tell us the reality of life, a lot of people are living a fictitious lifestyle. It’s not because they don’t want to tell the truth but the fear of being judge by the truth. I am not called to write as if life came as a magic even though am yet to get to my destination, our foundation is laid from now. Don’t wait until you get there, set a standard now. One day each one of you will have my book in your hand, the truth of it will offend a lot of people yet it will liberate a lot of souls. My focus is the souls it will liberate because am called because of them. After you have discovered yourself, from my experience you will still fail but the joy of updating my Blog this morning is the Greatest Love of the one who created me. I don’t know about you but I am not an ordinary person. I am greatness itself not because of myself but the unfailing Love of God that uphold me. In case you are wondering what am talking about, sorry that’s how much I have discovered myself. I AM A LOVED CHILD. Hate me or love me, all that matter is the love from above, my friend if you have that you have it all. Sometimes it takes a wrong step to discover you, nobody want trials and tribulation. We all desire to be great. Only a great man who has been tested can stand, life has thought me that. I don’t know what you believe in but I testify to you, so many times have lost my mind, but I NEVER WOULD HAVE MADE IT THIS FAR WITHOUT HIM, I NEVER COULD HAVE MADE IT WITHOUT HIM. I receive strength each day and I get better every day. It is also important to have people who believe in you, that also strengthens you but before you confide in anyone make sure He/She is really a confidant not someone who wants to hear your story for fun or feel better about themselves. I pray for you in this Journey of discovery the Most High shall be your true guide, He is available to be your true guide are you willing to be lead by Him? Love you all.

JUST AS I AM

This blessed me this morning and I trust that it would bless you too.As I read through, what struck me most is the fact that self righteousness is worse than sin. It is worth pondering, are we living according to the righteousness of Christ or Self-righteousness ? The Lord will help us as we seek wisdom from Him to walk on the right part. I urge you to come to Him just as you are and He will work it out for you... Are you talented? Gifted? Skilled? But you are unable to breakthrough? Then try righteousness. There are two types of righteousness: the first one is self-righteousness, which is worse than sin, and the other is God's righteousness. Some people are trying to avoid being over righteous and therefore continue sinning, and another tries to be righteous and in that wise becomes self-righteous. None of these are acceptable; as the only righteousness we need is that imputed by God. Righteousness exalts a nation, but sin is a reproach. Sin is a stigma; it is like wearing a white cloth and having a stain on it. If we are righteous before God then we are wearing a white cloth and therefore cannot just hug anyone, as some have oil on their hands/body, and can put blemish on your white cloth. We may not understand sin from the perspective of the Spirit; but sin is capable of destroying the intimacy between you and God so that when you want to pray to your Dad in Heaven, it is like approaching your dad who is in a white suit and you have a lot of dirt on you - yet you want to hug him. God does not hate you, but he hates the dirt.

YOU’RE NOT FORGOTTEN

Peeps don’t get jealous, Only God’s own special possession will be blessed with such special people that I have in my life. This post isn’t about me but a very dear special Uncle and father, whose impact and love has helped me appreciate myself more. He is not a man of many words but he is filled with so much love that can go around for us all. A lot of you have asked me on Facebook how I came about the name Adenrele, I think you should ask him. As for me Ade indeed rele. I am not gonna right too much, but this is my very own special apology for mixing your birthday date. I want you to know you are so special to me as much as I know I am special to you and I love you very much. You found me at the right time. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST UNC ADEREMI ABOLARIN, YOU’RE NOT FORGOTTEN.

I LOOK TO YOU!!!

Anyone wondering why have been quite? I dont write to fill my blog, I get the drive. How often have you tried to change something you dont like about youself? How long did it take you? Were you ever able to change it? If No, Why are you quick to judge others? Why are you tryin to change others in a twinkle of an eye? Why do we run others down by mere hearsay, Without experiencing them. I learnt in very practical way last night that information passed from one person to the other is not as accurate as the first person who heard it directly, people tend to add and remove along the way. It happened in front of me, no one told me. If God created us all equal, life would have been so boring. The difference is what makes us all uniques in our own special way. Listen, am not condoling anyone to nurse there bad habit NO, All am saying is dont let the opinion of others derail you from your focus and vision because thats the mission of the accuser. Often times the people who run us down are worse than us. Where is your eyes? Who do you look unto? Who's opinion are you living by? As a beliver, when you Do something wrong and you knee before heaven to state your case asking for forgiveness, He forgives us and remembers it no more. Why then do we live in condemnation of mere mortals like us? Change is constant but there is one who changeth not, He is the unchanging changer. He causes change to happen in our lives. Today let your focus be on the one who can rewrite your story. Let the result of what the majesty of God will do in your life answer the mockery of men. The only way you can silence the accuser is to stay focus on your vision. Look only unto Him who is the unchanging changer, so that you can be remember for something Valueable.

MAKE A MOVE!!!!!

How many time have you written a New Year resolutions and at the end of the Year you find out none of it was accomplish? Most times its not because we dint pray enough about it, Rather its because all we do is pray and don't Act. We cant continue to do things the same way and expect a different result. Even the bible explains in James 2:14-18 "What good is it, my brothers and sisters, if someone claims to have faith but has no deeds? Can such faith save them? Suppose a brother or a sister is without clothes and daily food. If one of you says to them, “Go in peace; keep warm and well fed,” but does nothing about their physical needs, what good is it? In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead. But someone will say, “You have faith; I have deeds.”Show me your faith without deeds, and I will show you my faith by my deeds." This year, I choose to make a move on each and everything I wrote. I believe Failure is when you stop trying. I urge you this year, Don't just sit and wish. Make it happen in your own little way. Make a move and watch heaven bless the move. As usual discouragement will come your way but don't Give up, let your focus be on the result not the work. Believe me at the end of the year you will be surprised. Have started and I tell you it working for me. THE TIME IS NOW..........MAKE A MOVE.

LIGHT AT MY FEET

I am a big fan of Tyler Perry, His Movies and play aint only inspiring but they are Godly, educative, real and even encouraging.You relate with it like its telling your own story. I am sure anyone who has seen one of His Movies would have his/her own opinion but my post is about what I read on his Facebook page, all through the weekend I couldn't stop thinking about it, one would expect that my first post this year should say something about my resolution or so, but I promise you this is more inspiring thaN anything I would have wanted to write.

"To all of you that use the cell phone light like I do, I just want to say this. For me, as I was walking through my dark house trying to get to my bedroom, it was truly an exercise in faith. I could only see the light at my feet. I had to trust that even though I could only see three feet in front of me, if I kept following this light, I would get there. It reminded me of a scripture in the bible, Psalm 119:105 "The word is a lamp unto my feet and a light into my pathway." Back in those days when people would travel through the night, they would use little lamps that were attached to their feet. The lamp only gave them enough light to see just a few steps in front of them. As long as they kept moving, they could find their way. If they stopped moving, so did the light. This moved me because this is how I have lived my entire life. I have always walked by faith. Sometimes there was only a little light, a little hope that kept me moving. There were so many times that I didn’t know how I was going to make it. So many times I didn’t know where my next meal was coming from, if my hope would be realized or if my dreams would come true. But no matter how dark it got, I kept moving. That is one of the keys to making your dreams come true. JUST KEEP MOVING FORWARD! If you’d allow me to, I’d like to challenge you to do more of that this year. Live by faith! No matter what you see happening around you, no matter how dark it may be, follow the lamp at your feet that God provides to us all, no matter who we are. A small step is still a step forward. At the top of every year, I stop and go away to reflect. I will usually take out my journal and read over some of the past years and look at all the things God brought me through, no matter how dark the times. What rereading my journal taught me is that there was always a lamp at my feet. I think if you look at your life, you’ll see a lamp too. :-) If you don’t, look closer. I promise you it's there! If you’re struggling in any way, financially, school, business, relationships, children, sickness, heartache, I so believe that God will be a light unto your pathway. IF YOU LET HIM!! Stop looking for the light at the end of the tunnel and look at the light at your feet and you’ll get there. I hope you remember this every time you use your cell to light a path. God Bless you in 2012! You can make this your best year yet, through faith." TYLER PERRY

SIKEMI....More than a Friend.

I know Lapeju and Bugy will agree with me on this post. You are a different person to each one of us, yet you just You. Often times when people walk into our lives, we can't estimate how long they would be there. Just like yesterday at Seico, I was in my shell and you found me. OSU's journey seems like a coincidence but now I know its God's preplanned journey for us all.

Oh guys (Bukola & Lapeju) am writing this on behalf of us, I cant totally describe your thoughts but sharing this journey with you I do have an idea, Pls I urge you to add the areas I dint touch.

Right from the beginning it felt more like you are more than a friend. And today that's what it is. Your home is ours, Your family Our family. A lot of times we know God Has special being HE created, not because they don't have flaws but the way He made them "UNCOMMON". I must have mentioned how much you remind me of Aunty Peju until I found out you share same month. As much as you remind me of her, you both occupy different space in my World.

Now am diverting, back on track this is suppose to be a special birthday wish for a wonderful Sister.

Our Prayer " Everything got started in HIM and finds its purpose in HIM. Today we celebrate what HE planned before you ever existed. Your life is a blessing given by God's Loving hands. We pray today and everyday that you will move forward armed with Faith $ Love, Discovering the blessings HE has set forth for you... Remembering that we love you but more importantly that HE does. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE." Words aint enough to express our Joy and Gratitude for having you in our Lives. We just Celebrate Him in You.

GOODBYE 2011

Its barely 7days to go and I already feel like goodbye. Woke up reflecting on as much event as I could remember in the year. The Joy, the pain, the Love, hurts, growth, disappointment, betrayal, inspiration and the list is endless. Luther sang "RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE" LIFE CAN TREAT YOU GOOD AND TURN AS COLD AS ICE. Life brings so much to us but in all this we shape or break our existence.

All the good and bad are what made us who we are right now. Have you had time to think about how you lived this year? The things you wish to change, the change you have made. As much as I feel bad about some decisions I made, Am proud of myself for some. The imbalance of Life keeps us going. I don't wanna bore you but use this medium to reach as many as I can. For everyone who has caused me pain, I receive strength to Forgive, for all I have caused Pain in this year I seek for forgiveness. For all those who has inspired me and that i have inspired, I pray for more Grace. For every Joy have had, I give God Praise. For Growth in my Spiritual life I owe it to God. For every friend have made, I love you,To my main crew (Pj,bugy & BK) I love you more. How can I forget my BB group Comedy Central,Its a source of laughter when am feeling blue and all the true friends i made from CC,KEEP THE FIRE BURNING. I cant mention you all but everyone who has made an Impact in my life this year, am blessed to have you in my life. To those who're gone, Its for an appointed time. "no hates" To My wonderful Baba Arike, My Special Unc D & BESTEST Aunty Pj, you all rock my World. Iya Arike aint left in this Journey, GOD bless you all. To my jewel (MO) My life is incomplete without you.

I SPEAK TO YOU 2012, I WILL LIVE BETTER, LOVE HARDER, INSPIRE MORE, GET STRONGER IN YOU LORD, WORK MORE, ACHIEVE GREATER AND BE MUCH MORE THAN I CAN EVEN IMAGINE. FROM ME ITS HAPPY NEW YEAR NOW....ITS INDEED A DECEMBER TO REMEMBER,AM THANKFUL.

FORGIVE YOURSELF!!!

When you check my previous post (FORGIVE & FORGET), My focus was more on others. Today I feel its even easier to forgive others than ourself. Personally when something little happen, I go back to my mistakes and I keep condemning my self. I hear people lie to themselves and blame others for their own mistakes but when I self examine, I blame myself more than I blame people. I believe for every wrong people do to us, we have our own contribution, we allowed it. But today I have a different notion, its ok to self examine, access your wrongs and correct it for future occurrence but don't dwell on it, that's the root of bitterness.

Let me ask you? How many times have you blamed yourself for a mistake? Tell me! when you do, does it change anything? of cos not, it only makes you weary and down and sometimes slow you down from forging ahead. I urge you, try as much as you can to feel bad about your mistakes and wrong decisions but don't stay there. This is not automatic! Am a witness. The best thing you can do for yourself is learn from it and continue your Journey. The bible says in Matt 18:21-23 "Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother or sister who sins against me? Up to seven times?” Jesus answered, “I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.“Therefore, the kingdom of heaven is like a king who wanted to settle accounts with his servants. We cant achieve the above if we live in self condemnation. I am going to try it from this minute to Forgive myself

. My post are about me but this particular one is truly me. We all need this prayer of SERENITY!

DR I kept this very close to my heart, its strength for me in all this.....THANK YOU.

A CLEAN SLATE!!!!!

I don’t know why the heart doesn’t do what the mind tells it. Often we let our pain and emotions rule over us, rather if we use our head we would come with a better result. If you desire a fresh start you need to clean your slate. Yes CLEAN YOUR SLATE- its not as easy as it reads, it very painful but the end result is perfect. On a Monday morning rather than work I felt like breakfast outside somewhere with people I can be real with, not where I have to pretend to be laughing but deep inside am in pain. The best quite time I have is when am driving alone to no where or somewhere, that few minutes I have with myself is so precious and realistic. This morning I remember when I was a kid n lost in my lonely World, dint have a relationship with God but I know there is someone called God who created. I use to ask who am I? Who is God? Who are the people around me? I don’t know if anyone ever felt like that. A state of mind when you are so lost in your creation. I feel so selfless, careless, carefree, and heartless; I don’t know the best words to describe my feeling. The only way I express my self now is write the words in my thought! Wait a minute, how real can one write ones tot? What life do we live in when we have to fake everything, even the way we feel? Ever had days when your mind and thought is so blank you begin to ask yourself what’s happening to you. Searching for answers within yourself, asking am I acting someone else’s character, what happened to me?

Can’t remember if this has happened in a very long time but it’s been 3days now and I don’t know who I am? Tots are blank, I am blank… am trying to do the usual just to get back to myself but I don’t know how…Does this happen to you? Am speaking to my inner voice asking what’s wrong with me? Things I see my self do, don’t know if I would do them normally. Rather than stay at work I just want to get my tots out maybe it would help me concentrate. I feel like am trapped in someone else’s skin or someone else’s is trapped inside of me. Anyone wondering how I decided to update my blog if I don’t know who this is or does anyone feel me? Does any one understand what am saying? Has anyone of you felt like this? I don’t even know what to pray…… What’s wrong with me? I hear only the words I write because its words from my tot! Isn’t there room for a fiction writer who can write real life events just as they are, Raw fictions not just writing for peoples interest? I even get surprised, people claiming they are writing their biography but it’s not as true as it should be. A friend of mine often says my generation is waiting to be mentored by me. Mentored wit what, the lives that we live these days? Hell no…. I aint gonna be party to leading people through this fake life of ours. Let’s teach the imperfect us and not just the perfect. When you pray about something or someone praying a prayer of revelation for u, pause before you say Amen, cos I tell you sometimes you can’t handle the revelations you get…. TO BE CONTINUED.

Not Easily Broken

I cant forget part of the lyrics of Mary Mary's song which say " Come to far from where I started from, nobody told me the road would easy, BUT TRULY AM SAYIN THIS NOW LORD I KNOW YOU HAVEN'T BROUGHT ME THIS FAR TO LEAVE ME"

I read the T.d Jakes book not easily broken, I even watched the Movie and cried so much. Reflecting back right now I realise, we re who we're for certain reason or reasons. oh I say it a lot am such a baby but lookin back uptil this minute, I can say this it takes only a strong person to still be standing. Challenges are there for a reason I agree, when it happens it seems like we cant overcome it but with the great Overcomer, Its doable.

A BIG THANK YOU LORD, from January, I thank you for every hour, every minute, every seconds, my wrong decisions, the right one, my pain, my joy, the people around me and most of all the gift of life.. Sekemi I believe it more now when you say am a strong one, I don't see myself like that...........I owe it all unto the giver of my tender heart yet making me strong. I love you Lord more and more I am grateful for your work in me.

HANDS OF TIME

Sincerely how many times has any one of you reading this wish you could turn back the hands of time on a particular issue. How many times have you wished someone could live for longer or if someone could stay longer in your life, maybe you would have done things differently? Last week my friend posted a picture on her BB “DP” and wrote gone too soon, I asked her what happened,How could this cute face be gone? Are you for real? And she told me don’t you remember him in school. I have a very faint memory of him but yet no one wish to lose a friend especially not that young. Yesterday I saw his wedding ring and found out he got married early this year. I began to wonder, how is she feeling right now? What are the things on her mind she wish she did? if only it ever cross her mind he would only be with her for a very short while...am sure she wish she can undo that day, she wish he dint go out, she wish the bullet hit someone else and not him. How many people have left our lives through death and other unforeseen circumstances and we wish we can undo our actions? How many people have lost someone so close to them and her struggling to recover?

I have things I wish I can redo, But have learnt that some of the wrong decisions we make are like death. We can’t bring the love ones we have lost back BUT we can do something, LIVE FOR THE MOMENT....live every moment of your life like it’s your last. Relate with your love ones like you want, the moment you realise you have gone wrong Correct it immediately..You only have the moment, you can’t turn back the hands of time. Be remembered for the best and true you can be, most of all have the right relationship with the Maker.

Dedicated to all of you who have lost someone very special to death or other tragic circumstances......

PHENOMENAL WOMAN

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size But when I start to tell them They think I'm telling lies. I say, It's in the reach of my arms The span of my hips, The stride of my step, The curl of my lips. I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me. I walk into a room Just as cool as you please, And to a man, The fellows stand or Fall down on their knees. Then they swarm around me, A hive of honey bees. I say, It's the fire in my eyes And the flash of my teeth, The swing of my waist, And the joy in my feet. I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me. Men themselves have wondered What they see in me. They try so much But they can't touch My inner mystery. When I try to show them, They say they still can't see. I say It's in the arch of my back, The sun of my smile, The ride of my breasts, The grace of my style. I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me. Now you understand Just why my head's not bowed. I don't shout or jump about Or have to talk real loud. When you see me passing It ought to make you proud. I say, It's in the click of my heels, The bend of my hair, The palm of my hand, The need of my care, 'Cause I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me. Best of Maya Angelou.....I am a Phenomenal woman are you?

THE GREATEST LORD OF ALL

you know i love you, lord even the pores of my skin, the strands of my hair pulsate with the intensity of my love. the rushing winds carry my praise songs to you. the swishing springs leaping merrily bears witness to the unrestrained burst of mylove. all i ask of you lord is strenthen me every moment so i can feel the magic of your creation my heart swells with joy as no mortal knows when i hear the thunder roar and see the rolling waves of the boundless seas i know you are the greatest when at night i behold the galaxy the moon beckoning me i feel your

unbounding majesty i see i am part of you infinite essence i shall fear no fall for i know you'll be there to lift me up lord you are the greatest there is none like thee. the omnipotent,the incomprehensible essence of a supreme force,the incomparable genius of an undeniable presence. Its my favorite piece from CHIM NEWTON,Have bin looking for a way to share this Am glad i have.

Forgive and Forget!!!

This is a topic I know am struggling with for years, especially the forgetting part. Correct me if am wrong, I think its easier to kiss and make up but it almost impossible to forget.

Often times we here they say the Holy Spirit can help you to forgive, but if the hurt keep staring at you or in a case where the person you are trying to forgive of past Hurt is still doing it. how do you deal with this? All i know about this post is that when you forgive its for yourself but i tell you its easier said than done. I for one know we can do all things through Christ hence am asking for the Grace to deal with this............For this post i want more contribution. i Need help in this area. holding someone in your heart cages you........ Its easier for people to tell you what to do, cos they dont feel what you feel......But this is true.....when you forgive, it heals deep inside....

Once more i seek for Grace to do this............so badly Lord....

VOLUNTEERING OR SERVING???

Most times when we get lazy to do some prominent things, We should not allow the flesh to overcome us because something special might be on the way. I got up very lazy to go to church today, I made too many excuses within myself. don't get me wrong I love to be in His presence, but most times I use the evening service to make up for the morning one...Its not enough. I dragged myself reluctantly got dressed and took my little Prince off we go.........As I drove, I was meditating on what I would speak about when am leading prayer in the prayer group next week. A whole lot of ideas came but then I could hear a quiet voice tell me, stop trying I would lead you. So I got to church and the service went as normal until the message time, and I knew right away why I came to church today. Presently am part of a ministry where have joined various group in other to be of services to the ministry and community at large, Its an Outreach. I avoid being a worker in church,I let my shyness and all other excuses take me away. Infact the first church I serviced, I did a behind the scene work which I loved but serving is not about where we want to be,rather where he want to send us. before I go into details of the topic, I would like to include the dictionary meaning of each word. Volunteer can simply be defined as A person who renders aid, performs a service, or assumes an obligation voluntarily, while the Act of Service is simply defined as the act of delivering a writ or summons upon someone. my opinion, they both mean the same thing but I think I heard this message because I need to change my attitude towards the service am rending to people especially in the house of God. Most of us when we are called to serve, we don't see it as a privilege, some of us even agree to do it just to please the Pastor. if you are reading this right now and you are serving your community, church or any other organization voluntarily ask yourself now, Why am I doing this? It is because we don't know why we are doing it that is why we don't give the right attitude to it. I realized today that the call I got to serve is not from anyone but the King Himself, It is the reason I was saved. Its not like we don't know this things but when we are reminded, It help us get the right spirit in whatever we do. We make excuses like volunteering is for some special people. We are called to serve 1 Peter 4:10 "As each has received a gift, use it to serve one another, as good stewards of God's varied grace" we are called to serve in His army...God's will and God's way.

We are not just called to work in the ministry or our community for their gain,Its much deeper than that,we have to realize He is calling us to serve in His army. He might even ask us to do what we don't like. This days people only want to do the forefront work not dirty work, we do not realize Its the little we all do that actually rescue someone. When we are serving we think nothing is happening but the little we do has its daily effect. Our service is our Gratitude to His Love.I urge you today if you are already serving or still thinking about it. Do it with the right attitude, Live with a passion for His will, Serving is not a feeling. Our service should be Love and Gratitude based not Need base.Let your passion lead you by His spirit. Start where you can, with what you have. God is positioning you to check if there is a willingness to serve Him. Your service can rescue someone. All our service put together can rescue a life. He requires commitment from us.Take up what you have and give it. But remember none of this things can be done on our own. To serve right, Work under the control of the Holy Spirit. Allow the Holy Spirit to work His work through you. Live a life yielded to the Holy Spirit and serve with Joy. A grateful people knowing what we have been saved for.Duet28:47. Be Joyful serving, Serve the king with Gladness.... As for me and my household we would serve the Lord....