I WON, I CHOOSE RIGHT.

I apologize to my faithful readers who have asked me severally if I have abandon my blog, the answer is no. Although sometimes I feel like am so consumed with my publications and forget about sharing my thoughts, the truth is I made a promise to write just as it is and when something happens and I can’t share it the way it is, I choose not to write. I don’t want to be in the same situation with same people I have complained about, I believe the things I couldn’t share happened so I can understand the other perspective of writing, Some people have to make things up just because they don’t want to be Judged. As I fellowship today and I was having the thought of defeat and I could hear in my spirit, just because I choose right doesn’t mean I was defeated, Rather I am the winner. Some people think am a religious writer, the answer is no but my spirituality is part of me, so there is no way am going to write about my thoughts and leave that part of me, In fact my spirituality is my inspiration for doing what I love. Have you ever felt like just because you choose to make peace with someone who wronged you, you feel defeated? Or just because you let someone have their way and choose to do the right thing and they make you feel like they defeated you and you accept it. This morning I realize that just because I choose right makes me a winner. It leaves me free of guilt of doing the wrong thing and the supposed winner is still trap in the agony of their choice. The worst way of judging happiness, is judging from the face. It is deeper than that, it radiates from the inside and rub off on the people around you, then you won’t have to announce it, people see and feel it. I know it’s easier for us to go ask for forgiveness from some we have wrong but it harder to go reconcile with someone who has wronged us and sometimes when we try, we do it the wrong way. We condemn them and hope that makes us feel better. Ask yourself, does it make you feel better? Apostle Paul says in Romans 14:19 “Therefore let us pursue the things which make for peace and the things by which one may edify another”. We are to approach peace through humility at the expense of our pride. It is the only way to see true reconciliation. Pride defends. Humility agrees and says, “You are right, I have acted this way, Please forgive me. That’s the wisdom from above.

The whole point is,” if it is possible as much as it depends on you, live peaceably with all men Romans 12:18” Either you are the right or wrong one, seek peace and do it the right way especially if you desire peace. Its unavoidable, this things trouble us, when you seek peace, it is for your sake and not the other person, you have chosen right therefore you are the winner not a looser don’t let the wrong thoughts lie to you. Sometimes it seems like am been unrealistic writing the impossible, I agree it’s hard but know for sure, when I write it I am willing to give it a shot. I refuse to be hindered by offense, bitterness, pain, betrayal and hurts that come from feeling defeated. I am a winner, I choose right.

LIGHT AT MY FEET

I am a big fan of Tyler Perry, His Movies and play aint only inspiring but they are Godly, educative, real and even encouraging.You relate with it like its telling your own story. I am sure anyone who has seen one of His Movies would have his/her own opinion but my post is about what I read on his Facebook page, all through the weekend I couldn't stop thinking about it, one would expect that my first post this year should say something about my resolution or so, but I promise you this is more inspiring thaN anything I would have wanted to write.

"To all of you that use the cell phone light like I do, I just want to say this. For me, as I was walking through my dark house trying to get to my bedroom, it was truly an exercise in faith. I could only see the light at my feet. I had to trust that even though I could only see three feet in front of me, if I kept following this light, I would get there. It reminded me of a scripture in the bible, Psalm 119:105 "The word is a lamp unto my feet and a light into my pathway." Back in those days when people would travel through the night, they would use little lamps that were attached to their feet. The lamp only gave them enough light to see just a few steps in front of them. As long as they kept moving, they could find their way. If they stopped moving, so did the light. This moved me because this is how I have lived my entire life. I have always walked by faith. Sometimes there was only a little light, a little hope that kept me moving. There were so many times that I didn’t know how I was going to make it. So many times I didn’t know where my next meal was coming from, if my hope would be realized or if my dreams would come true. But no matter how dark it got, I kept moving. That is one of the keys to making your dreams come true. JUST KEEP MOVING FORWARD! If you’d allow me to, I’d like to challenge you to do more of that this year. Live by faith! No matter what you see happening around you, no matter how dark it may be, follow the lamp at your feet that God provides to us all, no matter who we are. A small step is still a step forward. At the top of every year, I stop and go away to reflect. I will usually take out my journal and read over some of the past years and look at all the things God brought me through, no matter how dark the times. What rereading my journal taught me is that there was always a lamp at my feet. I think if you look at your life, you’ll see a lamp too. :-) If you don’t, look closer. I promise you it's there! If you’re struggling in any way, financially, school, business, relationships, children, sickness, heartache, I so believe that God will be a light unto your pathway. IF YOU LET HIM!! Stop looking for the light at the end of the tunnel and look at the light at your feet and you’ll get there. I hope you remember this every time you use your cell to light a path. God Bless you in 2012! You can make this your best year yet, through faith." TYLER PERRY

SIKEMI....More than a Friend.

I know Lapeju and Bugy will agree with me on this post. You are a different person to each one of us, yet you just You. Often times when people walk into our lives, we can't estimate how long they would be there. Just like yesterday at Seico, I was in my shell and you found me. OSU's journey seems like a coincidence but now I know its God's preplanned journey for us all.

Oh guys (Bukola & Lapeju) am writing this on behalf of us, I cant totally describe your thoughts but sharing this journey with you I do have an idea, Pls I urge you to add the areas I dint touch.

Right from the beginning it felt more like you are more than a friend. And today that's what it is. Your home is ours, Your family Our family. A lot of times we know God Has special being HE created, not because they don't have flaws but the way He made them "UNCOMMON". I must have mentioned how much you remind me of Aunty Peju until I found out you share same month. As much as you remind me of her, you both occupy different space in my World.

Now am diverting, back on track this is suppose to be a special birthday wish for a wonderful Sister.

Our Prayer " Everything got started in HIM and finds its purpose in HIM. Today we celebrate what HE planned before you ever existed. Your life is a blessing given by God's Loving hands. We pray today and everyday that you will move forward armed with Faith $ Love, Discovering the blessings HE has set forth for you... Remembering that we love you but more importantly that HE does. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE." Words aint enough to express our Joy and Gratitude for having you in our Lives. We just Celebrate Him in You.

A CLEAN SLATE!!!!!

I don’t know why the heart doesn’t do what the mind tells it. Often we let our pain and emotions rule over us, rather if we use our head we would come with a better result. If you desire a fresh start you need to clean your slate. Yes CLEAN YOUR SLATE- its not as easy as it reads, it very painful but the end result is perfect. On a Monday morning rather than work I felt like breakfast outside somewhere with people I can be real with, not where I have to pretend to be laughing but deep inside am in pain. The best quite time I have is when am driving alone to no where or somewhere, that few minutes I have with myself is so precious and realistic. This morning I remember when I was a kid n lost in my lonely World, dint have a relationship with God but I know there is someone called God who created. I use to ask who am I? Who is God? Who are the people around me? I don’t know if anyone ever felt like that. A state of mind when you are so lost in your creation. I feel so selfless, careless, carefree, and heartless; I don’t know the best words to describe my feeling. The only way I express my self now is write the words in my thought! Wait a minute, how real can one write ones tot? What life do we live in when we have to fake everything, even the way we feel? Ever had days when your mind and thought is so blank you begin to ask yourself what’s happening to you. Searching for answers within yourself, asking am I acting someone else’s character, what happened to me?

Can’t remember if this has happened in a very long time but it’s been 3days now and I don’t know who I am? Tots are blank, I am blank… am trying to do the usual just to get back to myself but I don’t know how…Does this happen to you? Am speaking to my inner voice asking what’s wrong with me? Things I see my self do, don’t know if I would do them normally. Rather than stay at work I just want to get my tots out maybe it would help me concentrate. I feel like am trapped in someone else’s skin or someone else’s is trapped inside of me. Anyone wondering how I decided to update my blog if I don’t know who this is or does anyone feel me? Does any one understand what am saying? Has anyone of you felt like this? I don’t even know what to pray…… What’s wrong with me? I hear only the words I write because its words from my tot! Isn’t there room for a fiction writer who can write real life events just as they are, Raw fictions not just writing for peoples interest? I even get surprised, people claiming they are writing their biography but it’s not as true as it should be. A friend of mine often says my generation is waiting to be mentored by me. Mentored wit what, the lives that we live these days? Hell no…. I aint gonna be party to leading people through this fake life of ours. Let’s teach the imperfect us and not just the perfect. When you pray about something or someone praying a prayer of revelation for u, pause before you say Amen, cos I tell you sometimes you can’t handle the revelations you get…. TO BE CONTINUED.

Not Easily Broken

I cant forget part of the lyrics of Mary Mary's song which say " Come to far from where I started from, nobody told me the road would easy, BUT TRULY AM SAYIN THIS NOW LORD I KNOW YOU HAVEN'T BROUGHT ME THIS FAR TO LEAVE ME"

I read the T.d Jakes book not easily broken, I even watched the Movie and cried so much. Reflecting back right now I realise, we re who we're for certain reason or reasons. oh I say it a lot am such a baby but lookin back uptil this minute, I can say this it takes only a strong person to still be standing. Challenges are there for a reason I agree, when it happens it seems like we cant overcome it but with the great Overcomer, Its doable.

A BIG THANK YOU LORD, from January, I thank you for every hour, every minute, every seconds, my wrong decisions, the right one, my pain, my joy, the people around me and most of all the gift of life.. Sekemi I believe it more now when you say am a strong one, I don't see myself like that...........I owe it all unto the giver of my tender heart yet making me strong. I love you Lord more and more I am grateful for your work in me.

HANDS OF TIME

Sincerely how many times has any one of you reading this wish you could turn back the hands of time on a particular issue. How many times have you wished someone could live for longer or if someone could stay longer in your life, maybe you would have done things differently? Last week my friend posted a picture on her BB “DP” and wrote gone too soon, I asked her what happened,How could this cute face be gone? Are you for real? And she told me don’t you remember him in school. I have a very faint memory of him but yet no one wish to lose a friend especially not that young. Yesterday I saw his wedding ring and found out he got married early this year. I began to wonder, how is she feeling right now? What are the things on her mind she wish she did? if only it ever cross her mind he would only be with her for a very short while...am sure she wish she can undo that day, she wish he dint go out, she wish the bullet hit someone else and not him. How many people have left our lives through death and other unforeseen circumstances and we wish we can undo our actions? How many people have lost someone so close to them and her struggling to recover?

I have things I wish I can redo, But have learnt that some of the wrong decisions we make are like death. We can’t bring the love ones we have lost back BUT we can do something, LIVE FOR THE MOMENT....live every moment of your life like it’s your last. Relate with your love ones like you want, the moment you realise you have gone wrong Correct it immediately..You only have the moment, you can’t turn back the hands of time. Be remembered for the best and true you can be, most of all have the right relationship with the Maker.

Dedicated to all of you who have lost someone very special to death or other tragic circumstances......

THE GREATEST LORD OF ALL

you know i love you, lord even the pores of my skin, the strands of my hair pulsate with the intensity of my love. the rushing winds carry my praise songs to you. the swishing springs leaping merrily bears witness to the unrestrained burst of mylove. all i ask of you lord is strenthen me every moment so i can feel the magic of your creation my heart swells with joy as no mortal knows when i hear the thunder roar and see the rolling waves of the boundless seas i know you are the greatest when at night i behold the galaxy the moon beckoning me i feel your

unbounding majesty i see i am part of you infinite essence i shall fear no fall for i know you'll be there to lift me up lord you are the greatest there is none like thee. the omnipotent,the incomprehensible essence of a supreme force,the incomparable genius of an undeniable presence. Its my favorite piece from CHIM NEWTON,Have bin looking for a way to share this Am glad i have.